I am 34 years old. I have been on a journey of growth, awakening and coming home to myself almost for the past 10 years. One of the most important lessons I’ve had to learn, in life, in business, in love…your body will speak to you.
We speak of intuition as though it is this great mystery, some indescribable, huge life altering feeling. I’ve learnt that intuition is following the whispers of your body. That niggling feeling that something is wrong. That little voice that said no not today. That nudge to eat something specific. The urge to go out to the sea and simply be. The need for silence.
Our body and indeed our intuition speaks to us in a myriad of ways and some are subtle, some are overt and some are screaming reminders of things we need to hear right at that moment.
The bulk of the past 18months have been harrowing health wise. I’ve been on 13 different courses of antibiotics for a recurring UTI. In the tests and examinations I’ve subjected my body to, I have learnt that this is actually a result of fibroids pressing against the bladder and colon, through the back wall of my uterus.
A little diving deep into the nature of fibroids and the metaphysical meaning thereof netted me the information that as women, we carry our generational trauma, rage, sexual abuse and bitterness in our sexual, reproductive organs and kidneys. My body has been screaming at me to release this for over a year.
I’m 4 days away from an op to remove this physically from my body but I’ve spent the last 6 months especially making sure I voice my emotions whatever they may be, I set the boundaries necessary and I release what no longer serves…women are so used to carrying everything for everyone all the time that we often don’t listen to the whisper and only listen to the scream.
If there is one thing I can impart today, it’s that you are worthy of taking note of your reactions to things. The body is your compass. You must use it to navigate the things that come up. It’s your biggest tool…that friend that leaves you depleted…the guy that raises gooseflesh…the road that gives you a shiver…that shake in your hand when someone says something deliberately disparaging…the bile that rises…the fever that comes …